Gardening: TAKE TWO

One of my many Life Dreams is to have a farm. A cute little farm where I’d have reasonably sized chickens running around that aren’t hopped up on steroids. I’m not looking for gym chickens who regularly miss leg day and don’t see sunlight. I currently don’t eat chicken for this reason, and dream of eating eggs from chickens that are loved and healthy. And also mine. Mostly that part.

Below is a picture of me, hugging and petting one of my chickens who totally doesn’t have sharp talons and a viciously pointy beak. I’m living my best life and don’t care about safety or the future.

L’image contient peut-être : 1 personne, debout, enfant, herbe, arbre, plein air et nature
miraculously, I lived past childhood

I also desperately want bees, but that’s a post for another time. Bee’s are tantamount to our future and we are not taking it seriously. Wasps and hornets can go straight back to the hellfire whenst they came, but the rest can stay. And since we’re on the topic of creatures from the beyond, while moths and butterflies should be next in line, they do have the characteristic that they help pollination, so they get a pass from me.

To recap: I want a farm with bees and chickens. Until then, I’ll just have to garden.

The only drawback is that I’m a pretty lousy Grower of Things. Through trial and error I’ve figured out where things won’t grow in my yard, but it’s wasted nearly three years of decent produce. So I chalk it up to the dirt in which I plant. We’ll see what this year’s crop yields…

Today I planted lavender, and I’m so excited about it!

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cultivating my french garden 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I also have a pepper plant and four tomato plants going.

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look at these little buds!

 

 

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pepper buds!

There’s nothing of note about my marigolds, since I seem to have a golden thumb when it comes to those guys. They are sprouting up like plants on a mission!

 

 

 

My goal is to actually have all these lil’ fellas to grow, bloom, and thrive. LET’S SEE!

I actually want to make an immediate redaction. I hate moths. They don’t have a pass. So they can go. They can go first. I won’t have peace until then.

 

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My Accutane Journey: Eight Weeks In

Alright….I just took some photos of my face sans makeup today, which was demoralizing as usual. BUT, I’m not going to let that bother me, because I’m in California for a well-deserved break from ~real life~.

I attended Coachella the other week! The entire event was truly amazing. I have never experienced anything like it, and will give you guys an update on that soon.

*Disclaimer* I took these photos a week ago, and I’ve got to say my face looks better since then. This statement was also to make myself feel not so ugly? I really wish I’d been more vigilant in taking a photo each week to personally track my progress. It’s validating and makes me feel like the $$$$$$$$ I am dropping on this medication is worth it? I hope so?

It’s my biggest fear -after moths, of course– that this won’t work and I’ll be in the percentage that just gets acne again once I get off the medication.

At this point in the treatment, my skin is a sponge. Guys, it is a sponge. I caved and bought a face serum. Like some kind of fancy-pants, bourgeois, kale popcorn eating, Stepford wife. Or someone who takes pride in their skincare.

So. My lips need constant moisturizing. While in California, I bought five, five, chapsticks. I kept forgetting to put them in my bag and would inevitably find that my lips needed moisture wicking, salvation bringing life. The last time I forgot my lip balm at home I just went to target and bought a pack of three Carmex tins to end the nonsense once and for all. There is no moment in which Carmex is not on my lips.

By far the worst part is the cracking in the corners of my mouth. If they get too dry, the skin rips apart again, even if it has slightly healed. Its great. Nothing like not being able to eat salad with oil and vinegar dressing to remind you to slather on more Carmex!

I’m not sponsored by Carmex.

I try to keep my face as clean as possible and wash my makeup off as soon as I get home and have nowhere to be. My makeup brushes are cleaned every other day if they touch my face. I drink loads of water. I have gentle facial cleansers and a gentle toner.

I caved and bought micellar water. I use sunscreen! Good god! I am a changed woman.

But the dryness is real, folks. I’ve been trying to stay hydrated and moisturized. Basically I am a low-wattage lightbulb.

As for my progress, since there are no previous photos to pit this against, I can’t give you a good before/after comparison.

But *cringing* here are my photos! I’m facing *hah* a very real fear here, especially since this is connected to my social media…

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my better side….plus my beauty mark/mole thing
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the void in which I reside

 

 

 

 

Honestly I have never put a photo up without makeup on. I’m trying not to scroll back up and look at it and wallow in the hopeless feeling it gives me. It’s easy for me to get bummed out about this situation, but if this is one of my biggest problems, I think I’ll be ok.

Here’s hoping next month will be even better! Cause it does get better, I promise.

 

 

A Response to a Wedding Photographer

Perusing Facebook, I came across This article, which talks about photography at weddings. More specifically, non-photographers taking pictures during the wedding. The writer uses a picture in which the groom is looking past guests holding up their phones.

As someone who is generally bothered by handheld technology at events and gatherings, I understood the photographer’s complaint. Not only does it look bad in the professional photos the bride and groom are paying for, it is a distraction and keeps the guests from being fully present in the wedding.

This goes for intimate dinners or gatherings with friends. I’m always bothered when it becomes “phone-time,” the term my friends and I dubbed for the moments where somehow our phones drag our attentions away from real life interactions. I’m guilty of it, of course, but I hate when it happens. I feel guilty that I’m checking Facebook when my friends are in front of my face. Once, at a game night with my friends, one of us checked our phones. This may not be the most Earth-shattering thing to happen, but I couldn’t imagine who my friend was talking to. “What other friends do you have? We are all literally here! In this room!” My friend laughed at our outburst, her cheeks turning slightly pink, telling us we were right and that it was just a habit.

But back to this photographer. While it is probably impossible, and a little unfair, to ban electronics from a wedding, I find him totally justified. The photographer is paid to take pictures of the event so that you don’t have to! You can have fun! And look at the pictures later! That sounds great to me, because I’d rather be having fun with my friends than taking mediocre pictures with my phone.

Speaking from a photographer’s point of view, I’d love it if the photo wasn’t compromised by others with their phones up. The lack of visual distractions like other cameras is a totally understandable thing to want. Just be present and get off your phones, you’re at an event that was most likely planned with excruciating detail. If they’ve hired a photographer, do both parties a service and unplug.

If they haven’t, then I guess go for it! It’s fun to be a part of the documenting, just maybe keep it for the moments where you won’t get in the way. Discretion is probably key, and so is moderation. Don’t step out in the aisle, get in the way of cutting the cake, or anything else that is an Important Moment.

As Mr. Stewart rightly put it, “you are witnesses to their marriage, so for goodness sake, watch them with your eyes and your minds, not your phones.” I totally agree with this advice, and I’m glad I indulged in some phone bashing when I got the chance.

Adjustng!

Even though its only been just over a week, I feel like I’ve already been in Paris for a very long time. When I’m getting used to being in a new situation, time seems to go really slowly because of all the new sights, people and surroundings. However, my excitement in being in Paris definitely overwhelmed any amount of stress I  have been experiencing.

La Tour Eiffel
La Tour Eiffel

Tell me that isn’t worth a little bit of anxiety…

Continue reading “Adjustng!”

Winter!

Now that there is a substantial amount of snow on the ground -not a dusting- it’s officially winter! While there are technically five more days, I count the first real snow as the entry into hibernation-quality lifestyle.

Now is the time for baking!

Now is the time for reading!

Tv, cookies, movies, crafting, drinking, eating, playing!

Winter, besides the bone chilling cold on those truly unbearable days, is really one of the most beautiful times during the year.

It’s a perfect time for self-reflection with the year coming to a close and the birth of a new year. Circle of life y’all.

Enjoy the holidays!

A

As someone who is just learning anything about football on my ever continuing quest to learn as much as I can about this world, I really enjoy seeing plays like these. I’d been stuck with the idea that football was boring (that little idea hasn’t quite moved out yet though, he’s sort of an eternal boarder but one foot is out the door for now) even though I really knew nothing about it.

Recently though, I’ve been fascinated with following a few players. There is no way I could learn about the entire NFL or college football teams in any comprehensive way in a few days (which is disappointing) but I’m doing my best. Fun thing I learned after being confused about this AFC/NFC/AFL/NFL stuff was what it all meant (sort of). At least I know it’s conferences before they merged but then are still separated. I’m obviously still figuring it out. I still don’t understand how they come up with their playing schedules and who they play. But it’s a lot of fun and I feel like I need to brush up on so many things  in my life that it’s overwhelming, but this is a push in the right direction.

I’d love to do something with sports in the future, and sports photography is the direction I’d like to go in. But without sufficient knowledge about a particular sport I don’t think I’d ever be able to photograph it accurately, and I can’t have that.

But anyways, above I liked to a tweet about a really stunning play by Teddy Bridgewater. I first read about him in Sports Illustrated, and while I couldn’t find the profile on him, this sums up the piece pretty well. I may a little late on the ball with this guy, but hey, I hated Tom Brady for about four years for no apparent reason and I’m a Patriots fan, even with limited knowledge. So that’s the kind of person I am I guess, but I have seen the error of my ways, don’t worry.

Ok, I went on for a bit, but seriously watch the video in the tweet. It is an amazing play, and -at least in my opinion- it literally looks like he just chucks it up in the air. But then they catch it! It’s so cool! Sports!

That’s all for today,

Araz